I feel like… I’m most happiest escaping “home” for awhile, go somewhere and travel there alone…
I don’t know, maybe meet new people and pour my life “story” without having fears of judgments because I know I most likely will not see them again but it’s always nice to talk to someone.
Or sit in a cafe in a city that I barely know, skim through a menu not knowing what to order and eventually order something, and feeling the excitement of the food that’s about to be given. Maybe write in my journal while I witness and experience the locals and tourists shuffling through the city with their own life and going-ons.
Go to a museum or gallery, and ponder about life. Sit on a beach or park, close my eyes, listening to the sounds surrounding me.
I’m wasting my time here at “home”. I barely have any friends here that I would enjoy hanging out with and telling my current thoughts to… I don’t have access to transportation to escape for awhile. Everything to do with journeys and adventures involves asking my parents for consent… I miss England.
It’s hilarious that prior to my mini 1 week solo trip, I would get negative responses from friends and people in general (except for 1 friend who didn’t mind but wouldn’t do it).
"why solo? who would you eat dinner with???"
"be careful and stay safe, and at least someone knows etc."
"wow so brave."
I’m never alone; I stay at hostels; meet people’ hang out with them temporary to the same places we had in mind; eat with them.
Therefore, solo or whatever one will always meet new people and it’s so so so easy to get along with them (unlike my my efforts in trying to befriend some people in uni), unless of course you are not an ‘open person’ or keep things to yourself, then yeah you’ll pretty much be lonely I guess.
I get to do whatever I want. I don’t have to rely on other friend’s and their preferences, whether it be financial, cravings, places to visit or stay etc. Also the only person I’d have to worry about is myself.
As lame as this sounds, I gain some skills - confidence, navigation, independence, social skills etc.
One of my main issue and anxieties of travelling solo is navigating my way back and safety. But the main logic of these concerns is to, well, think and act like one would do back home, would you go to these suspicious looking alleys? (although I have been wandering such places lol) etc. Pretty much, don’t like stupid.
travelling solo is the best thing, and I get sad when people who really want to travel cancel their travel plans just because their friends drop out, and they are too scared to travel solo. I even know someone who had planned to travel all the way around the UK this summer, but sort of cancelled it as a friend of hers drop out due to ‘it’s expensive’… sigh
I hate that swans just had to play on the night before my last exam. So now I’m overcome with the difficult decision of whether I should spend 4 hours of Swans or 4 hours of studying. I really want to see Swans.